wonders never cease
excuse me while i reminisce.
"how did my nights ever get so miserable. i used to love staring out of the window and look at the stars and the full moon and the people still milling about downstairs. now i can't stand any of that. i need sleep pronto." 23/11/05
"when i come home from work, all i want to do is hit the sheets and sleep immediately. i cannot afford to let my mind drift off. that's dangerous. cos when my thoughts go into unwanted territories i won't be able to sleep till 2,3 or even 4 am. i can't even watch tv now. cos there will be lapses when i go into hyper-hormonal-emotional-macam-sial mode. i can't remember when was the last time i watched a tv program in its entirety." 17/11/05
wahlandey. fucking emo hor me. looking back i can hardly believe all that was written by me. i am so past it now i cannot believe how painful and how much hurt i went thru. but yeah i can remember the tears pretty well. and the melancholy. god, the perpetual state of deep blue funkiness i was in.
2005 ended with a twisted bang because of that. i came out of all of that relatively unscathed, thank god. back then i depended on all kinds of quotes to get by and to validate the state i was in.
"for every sad thing that has happened to me, there are a million other things that are keeping me happy" was one such quote.
as true as the saying was, in the end all i really needed was myself. and time. cos it does really heal all the wounds. i know that's like the mother of all cliches. but there's a reason why people spout it abundantly and that's because it's bloody true.
What do you feel
When you let go of the wheel
Can you take a leap of faith
Will you face the change of pace
There are worlds out there
Beyond compare
Going on a journey
Somewhere far out east
We'll find the time to show you
Wonders never cease
All that we've been through
Brings my soul so close to you
Why not cast your fears aside
We can laugh until we cry
There are worlds out there
Beyond compare
i heart morcheeba.
