middle of nowhere
friendship's a funny thing. you try to be fair to everyone. you try your hardest to love each friend the same. but inevitably someone gets hurt and this time round it might be me.
so i'm called miss switzerland. because i play for both sides and bacause i don't take sides. it's hard when you have two groups of people who don't get along. it's especially harder when you know both parties used to gel together a while back, used to be friends. and it was easier for me. now i'm in the middle, stuck in lies and fibs.
my fault for valuing friendships too much?
and it maddens me to think that this won't be solved any time soon because people refuse to be honest. at least spare me the misery of having to lie and having to cover your asses. spare me the agony of having to choose one party over another. spare me the "ouuh are you meeting your 'best friend' today hahaha" ribbings cos they're not the least bit funny. sometimes i think that sensitivity chip is missing in your bones. and it saddens me cos you're good guys and with whom i have good friendships with.
i wish this will end soon. i'm sick of hearing both lots of you saying mean things about each other. sometimes i laugh but i do have a conscience and guilt presents itself.
stop thinking about yourselves for once and spare me a thought. you haven't done enough of that lately.
