bright, cheery, and slightly funky christmas afternoon
i just read all his friendster messages that he sent me in the past. all the way from when we just got to know each other and him missing me when he's overseas. nabei nabei.
i just LOVE torturing myself. so fun making myself depressed!
it's not enough that i couldn't sleep til 3 am cos i kep thinking about him. damn starbucks hazelnut latte. bad night, bad night. tossing and turning. he's always at the back of my mind. subconciously. just there. yes i'm over him. i don't cry anymore. i don't go to sleep with swollen eyes anymore. but my god.. the ways caffeine can drive you crazy.
i stupidly thought town would be less crowded since people would stay indoors with their families and have their nice christmas dinenrs with nice turkeys and nice cranberry sauce. eh tak eh. machiam geylang lor. without the screaming store vendors. and with annoying people spraying fake snow from cans. singapore will never snow so can you just get over it?? smelly la.
so i had fun with the girls yesterday. laughed a lot, posed a lot. made fun of couples making out a lot. most importantly i felt loved a lot. and i love them just as much. I LOVE YOU GIRLS TAU I REALLY DO BETOL TAK BEDEK SEY. they make me feel things will be okay when i'm in a rut. sobs.
ok back to krisdayanti's concert. she's wearing this corset-ish top with feathers. she looks like a small peacock. who sings heartwrenching songs. songs that can make you cy... ok change channel.
