twenty-four seven melancholy
oh ho ho ho. i was such a happy bunny this morning. after my emo session last night that was a really nice surprise. i felt like doing a little jitterbug dancing. but i didn't. cos i erm, don't know how to.
hmm tralala. still feeling a little happy glow. but it's fading. cos night and its ensuing darkness will envelope me soon and probably throw me into cengeng mode again.
how did my nights ever get so miserable. i used to love staring out of the window and look at the stars and the full moon and the people still milling about downstairs. now i can't stand any of that. i need sleep pronto.
nevermind nevermind. this is temporary. hopefully. god i hope it's temporary. it has to be.
but i'm fine. i can be happy amidst all these. i can still go out and hold my head high and walk as though i'm not bogged down by any problems. it's when i reach home... then the melancholy sets in.
waahh tak suka la melancholy emo ni semua! it's exhausting being like this. but you know ah, i thought when you're sad you eat less right? how come i'm eating more then? and i'm always hungry? how to be anorexic or bulimic like this. so in the end i'll be sad AND fat?? knn.
