deep blue monday
fuck he looks so good in his new friendster photos. NABEI LA KNN!
ok 'fuck' is not a good way to start an entry on the first day of the week. cannot. this week my blog should be filled with happy entries about shiny happy people with shiny happy lives. who have no worries and who don't cry and who don't dwell on the shitty predicaments they landed themselves in.
but wait. FUCK ALL THAT, I SAY. because i am not happy and i am not shiny (except for my t-zone but that's another story). i am still down in the smelly dumps. i cut my hair at reds, hoping to buang suay. well for 44 bucks it better get rid of all my suays! my luck better change. soon will be good.
so saturday was mad. i partied like maaaaaadd. saturday was mad, rad and wet. shit it was cold. but even as i was in the throes of revelry he was always there, at the back of my mind. macam sial ah ini jantan. anyways. yeah saturday was "grande awesome", in the words of Y. take me back there!
i'm sorry my friends. i feel guilty nowadays when i heap upon you my neverending rants and whinings and emo madness. when you girls yourselves are pretty much having the same shit as me. sometimes i want to put a stop to our angsty msn conversations but i know you girls need to rant and let it out to me too, the same way i did to you. stop me if ever you're sick of my constant drama and my constant crying. i will heal myself with time. i can handle it.
