almost time
i want to have a tarantula for a pet.
ok never mind random thought there.
it's my last day at work here. and i feel a tiny pang of sadness. it's the best temporary job i ever had. good money, good location and good food all around (pinggang kegembiraan anyone? hurhur). good people too. i get along pretty well with them. not buddy-buddy with them but everyone's alright.
so i'm moving on. i feel like a nomad, like a butterfly. but it's okay. cos i like moving around. meeting new people. creating new memories.
i tell you what i'm gonna miss:
1) buzzing awin inside when a sad song comes on class 95 "ALERT ALERT LAGU SIAL ALERT!"
2) choosing what to eat at lau pa sat. and the teh tarik. the aunties at the stall recognise me already and i don't have to tell them my order anymore. when they see me they go 'teh naaaaaa..'
3) the pantry aunty talking on and on and me understanding only 30 percent of what she said. so funny. the aunty's alright. just sometimes when she's pissed mad she gets a tad too noisy. ok very noisy. macam nak gaduh.
4) my desk. so messy and cluttered since i came. must remember to put everything back in order later.
5) msn chats all day long. THANK GOD FOR INTERNET AND MSN! if not i'd have died a slow and painful death by now. although my pc has only windows 95 (you read that right WINDOWS 95 HOLY CRAP!) it's good enough. cannot complain much.
sigh.
2005 has been so painful that i can't imagine 2006 to be the exact opposite. but i will hope all the same. as painful as the past year has been, it wasn't all in vain. i learnt more about myself and my friends have proven to be the gems that they are. thank YOUS.
the past few months have shown me that yes, i do have the capacity to love but ultimately i got burnt and was left devastated but i'm alright now. i'd like to think i was made to be stronger than i think i am. and also, yes karma is alive and kicking and when it bites, it bites so fucken hard in the ass you won't know what hit you.
i'm grateful for all the opportunities that were thrown my way throughout the year. whether in relationships, in careers, in friendships and generally in life. every one of those opportunities brought me to where i am today. and you know what, where i am today is not such a bad place after all.
i have family. i have friends. and i have faith. just enough.
2005 has been one of the most eventful and most memorable years i've had. i will leave it without regretting anything. all the laughters, the tears, the turmoil.. not a single thing will i take back even if i had the chance. nothing goes to waste. absolutely nothing. i look forward to everything 2006 has in store for me. more laughters, more love and heck even more tears maybe. i want all the good and all the bad too. cos i've learnt this year that the bad always makes you appreciate the good twice as much. and after something bad happens the good appears brighter and the silver lining is not so elusive after all.
The pen's in my hand, ending unplanned... The rest is still unwritten.
