"i'm in the toilet crying my eyes out.."
last night something happened to me which was a first for me. 2 guys sms-ed me asking me out within 2 minutes of each other. and no, i'm not bragging. it's just very, very weird. and i turned them down both. muahahahaha. as i said, i cannot be bothered. maybe one day i will go out and date. but right now i'm not in a very let's get-to-know-each-other-better mood..
so i told one of my buddies bout that, in sms. due to the effects of pms, WHICH i thought lasts only for 1 day, this was how the sms exchange with her went:
A: ...
me: all those whinings bout not having a bf wasnt serious. i'm just annoyed dat sometimes my attached frens dont have time for me. i know it sounds selfish but a lot of times i feel like i'm the loneliest person in the entire world. esp now when i have so much time on my hand. day's y i'm always asking u ppl to go out and it hurts when i know u're nt free all the time. n now i'm in the toilet crying my eyes out. n bout the bf part, i dont know if i can share so much of me with someone else. i dont deserve anyone i know it. no one can handle me wif all my emotional stuff like rite now. it's nt fair for the ohter person when i hold back n nt willing to share anything.
A: it's ok. when u have a bf, n he's a gud 1 who u'stands he's the 1st, he wont push. anyway u cant do as badly as me. i just told him to sleep and never wake up. i cant be human.
was weeping as i tried to sleep. see what pms does to you. and my menses just came today. finally. thought my lovely red friend wouldnt come at all. so i've got my panadol menstrual and hot water bottle all ready. the pain hasnt come yet.
