marriage a.k.a sham?
[ soundcheck : goodbye my lover - james blunt ]
i read TODAY and i got so fucking.. frustrated.
one reader was quoted as saying that "marriage should be replaced with a cohabitation contract, because straying is in man's very nature and marriage does nothing for men, only for women."
i find that part "straying is in man's nature" very unsettling. i wonder if it's true. if it is then why do some marriages stay strong? if it's not then how come more men have affairs than women? i am confused and i am very insecure. what if i finally FINALLY found someone and then he cheats on me? that stupid phrase is going to haunt me for a long time and i figure out i will problably end up blaming myself.
but let's not go as far as marriages. even in relationships, guys AND girls are straying. i don't think i can firmly believe that every single person in a relationship is not plagued by insecurities. no relationship can ever be that stable, can they?
anyway the whole point of this is to convince myself that i CAN be exclusive about who i date and i WILL be responsible for the choices that i will make. i will not blame anyone else when failure and heartbreak descend upon me.