i'm superwonderwoman
[ earbuzz : jangan ada dusta di antara kita - broery marantika & dewi yull ]
i thought i'd never get thru today.
i woke up, felt funny, like badan rasa tak sedap kinda funny and realised my menses is here. whoop-de-bloody-doo. so fine, that's okay. i've gotten cramps like 296456 times before and i've recently started taking evening primrose oil pills and i'll be okay at the end of it. but no, my body had other plans.
i felt nauseous so i went to squat beside the toilet bowl and proceeded to gag. during the last gag, i felt a snap on my back. and FUCK it was painful. for a split second i thought i was paralysed. i started wailing and crying and basically i was in hysterics. i couldnt keep still or lie down cos it was so fucken unbearable. the doctor was open from 230 onwards and it was agony waiting around. can you imagine, bad cramps plus an even worse backache?
thank god i was the first patient. accompanied by my mum, my elder sis who took off from her work and later my dad came down too. i felt so precious. what did the doctor conclude? torn ligament. not serious, he said. just bad posture. NOT SERIOUS? i felt like i was half dead. he just prescribed me some painkillers and muscle relaxants. so anti-climatic.
the whole family was in a mini chaos today. i was sick, my grandpa who went for his blood tests was detained, amirul has fever, my sis was recovering from her fever. but my grandpa was fine. he IS fine. he's so strong for a 90-year old. his memory's still serving him well. salut. and my grandma is such an isteri mithali okay. she refuses to eat unless grandpa is eating with her. everytime, without fail can. respect.
so today i cried a lot. from pain. i dont usually cry because of pain. i can cry watching 'friends' and can cry watching '8 simple rules for dating my teenage daughter' even. but pain? rarely. unless my cramps is really, really bad. or like today. i was sobbing my guts out. i still shudder thinking back to earlier today.
but i got thru it. i'm superwoman and wonderwoman combined. i'm SUDERWOMAN. or WONPERWOMAN.
ok ok i got it. i have another pet peeve. why is it, when people think they're classy or chi-chi, they like to use to word MOI but instead spell it as MUA?? for heavens sake, dont act frenchy-la-la if you're not. get the fucken spelling right. and the grammar even. it means ME. so no 'mua sister or 'welcome to mua's blog' shit. so salah.
as i'm sitting i realise the pain is creeping up on me. better stop before i start wailing again.
oh before i forget, i ended an msn conversation feeling like a happy bunny. just reminding myself that i can still blush.
pathetic, pathetic this elii.
