duped
i've been duped.
kurt cobain didnt kill himself. neither did michael hutchence. and man didnt land on the moon in 1969. lies, all lies.
kurt cobain was murdered dammit. i'm reading the book investigating his death and there were so many inconsistencies that i'm convinced it was foul play. and courtney love herself might have been a part of it. she's the kind everybody was afraid she was gonna kill them. she's the kind everybody was afraid of. she was a pushy, overbearing, abusive wife to kurt and an irresponsible mother to frances bean. hell, she continued shooting heroin even after knowing she was pregnant. so there's always been speculation that frances was born an addict.
but the case remains unopened because the police refuses to consider it. interestingly the officer in charge of the investigation abruptly 'retired' a few years ago because of corruption charges. hmm.
michael hutchence however wasnt murdered. his death was more bizarre. he actually died while engaging in a sex act called auto-erotic asphyxiation (AEA).
"AEA - involves an intentional act of self-strangulation performed to heighten orgasm by constricting the flow of blood to the brain during masturbation. the breath deprivation results in a woozy, heightened orgasm."
but his death is still officially classified under 'suicide' in sydney. WHY? cos authorities wont admit their mistakes, were too lazy and too incompetent.
in 1969 neil armstrong and buzz aldrin did not land on moon. it's all a huge, elaborate plan executed by the US government at the expense of americans and other citizens around the world. WHY? to prove that america is far FAR superior than others and to one-up against the likes of other powerful nations namely russia. i'm a non-believer cos i've watched the documentary chronicling all the discrepancies and again, inconsistencies were so glaring it was impossible to ignore. of course nasa and the us government denied it. 'we landed on the moon dammit. no one can take that away from us!' they didnt actually say that la but i can imagine.
the 'moon' they supposedly landed on might possibly be area 51, the strictly-restricted and controlled piece of land in vegas. it's famous (or infamous) for being part of the government's alleged UFO coverup.
so right, the moral of all these is, never to believe anything at face value. do a little reading and watch some documentaries and you'll be amazed at the number of conspiracy theories out there. the 'official' conclusion might not be the truthful one. seriously, reading all these books opened my eyes and shocked me more than i would have ever liked to admit. it's mind-blowing.
had dinner at jp banquet with the other 2 and richard. i bought a strapless bra cos the only one i had was missing. i went out yesterday not wearing any makeup at all except for mascara, which didnt make a difference. i was dressed like some nyonya going to work at the lelong, with my 3-quarter pants, t-shirt and flip-flops. complete.
i slept at 330 in the morning. cos i was scared. yes, for the first time eli was scared to go to sleep. was sleeping in my brother's room. he's in london by the way. anyways i kept thinking about that scene in shutter when the guy was sleeping and the ghost pulled his blanket. i kept imagining her pale face and her hair. then my mind turned to ju-on also. when she climbed down the stairs on all four.
every part of my body, save for my face, was under the comforter. cos i was afraid the ghost would grab me. really. seram. i've never been scared like that before. i wanted to pee also but couldnt find the courage to get out of the room. was imagining that when i opened the bathroom door ju-on and his mother would stand there staring at me. ARRGGHHH. then some more i was reading the kurt cobain book before that and all the images of suicide and murder was swimming around in my head. watching temptation island before that hardly helped. well it'd be weird if it did help.
this was my longest entry in days. penat sunds.
