sigh.. what's with all these angst i read in blogs..? is it becos people are more sensitive nowadays? or becos changes happen and people can't seem to adjust to it...? this is not to 'angkat' myself or making me look good. not my intention at all. just to enlighten anyone who reads this.
all my life i've been blessed with frens and i'm thankful for that. from the days of pre-kindergarten till my working life now, i've always got someone to call my fren. who i can relate to. who i can share and laugh at corny jokes with. who i can cry with. who i can complain to. who i feel happy with. i may not have only one best fren, but i'm glad i did have ppl around me often. i never say this but i'm always grateful. i always pride myself knowing that i'm no hermit. it's good to know that there are people who care about you. people i mean both guys and girls.
let me tell u how i handle friendships. as long as i know u well, i will forgive u for ever betraying on me but i dun forget. wounds take time to heal but i always tend to get over it. i dun harp on it. if you need to be there for u in spme way or another, i will come around as long as i can help it. if i can't, dun ever think that i don't feel guilty becos i do. i feel really bad when i can't be there for u.i dun ask for u to pay back any favours. i remember times i helped people but i dun ask to be paid back. as corny and goody2 as this sounds, it's the truth. some of u out there may be going "aper je eli..." or "yeah rite" or "tak tau malu". but if u know me well enough, you would know all these are true. i wouldn't say "i'm always there for you and i'm getting sick of you not ever being grateful". i offer friendship because it feels good to know you and someone else are being appreciated. and u are making life worth living for myself and for u. not becos i want only myself to feel satisfied.
but i do admit i feel kind of sad when people dun make the effort. i'm not perfect. not at all. but at least i know all friendships are not roses and sunshine. it means there are always mistakes to be made and and room for them to be forgiven. u give some, u lose some.
if you're reading this and find that i'm just rambling on about crap and i'm a fucking hypocrite, well u can kiss my white ass for all i care. it proves that i can't please everyone. but i'm glad that those that i've pleased before are still by my side...
"If you should die before me, ask if you could bring a friend."
- Stone Temple Pilots
"Every person is a new door to a different world."
- from movie "Six Degrees of Seperation"
"The most I can do for my friend is simply to be his friend. I have no wealth to bestow on him. If he knows that I am happy in loving him, he will want no other reward. Is not friendship divine in this?"
- Henry David Thoreau
"Friendship that flows from the heart cannot be frozen by adversity, as the water that flows from the spring cannogt congeal in winter."
- James Fenimore Cooper
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